tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4000197825548242127.comments2022-05-09T02:12:50.001-07:00Leslie's IllusionsLesliehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15897067084988651970noreply@blogger.comBlogger538125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4000197825548242127.post-1456064812289405032022-05-09T02:12:50.001-07:002022-05-09T02:12:50.001-07:00Veryy creative postVeryy creative postScott Rhttps://www.scottromero.com/noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4000197825548242127.post-38391345961199019602013-11-25T15:35:25.033-08:002013-11-25T15:35:25.033-08:00I suggest staring with anger, as it seems one of t...I suggest staring with anger, as it seems one of the easiest emotions to harness, or sadness. Watch an inflammatory news station for a full week, or a series of tearjerkers like Nicholas Sparks' movies and the Lifetime channel. You have to go through the bad to get to the good. Speaking as someone with Bipolar Disorder who frequently Flatlines for long periods between the up-cycles and down-cycles, it may be difficult to realize that you *are* feeling at first, but I can honestly claim that eventually, after watching, say, Fox News or programs that "yell" at you and talk over each other, you will start to notice a certain bodily tension, which is agitation, a precursor to anger, or, after a lot of *sad* movies, start crying. While trying this, think of repetitive tasks (try household chores at first, or filling out paperwork) that you absolutely *hate*, then force yourself to do them. Repeatedly. Don't watch programs or do activities that could incite calm or boredom such as meditation or golf: that's just going to keep you flatlined. Dance also helps. Turn on the radio and get dancing or sing along (music has therapeutic applications), or play stations where you can't stand the music's genre (rap, musicals, country, etc.), if dancing to songs you like doesn't work out (they call it "Mood" Music for a reason). To jumpstart out of a Flatline, triggering bad memories can help just as easily as good memories, if not better because we remember the bad more clearly. If you don't watch much television, try books or YouTube. For more tips, contact me through FB (I'm AstraMara Rosenstod) and I'll give you my phone number so we can call and/or text, or my email, though I check that *far* less often. <br />It's a *struggle* to allow yourself to feel emotions after a long period of not, particularly in memories we've emotionally disassociated ourselves from, which is why anger - repressed along with everything else but so much quicker to surface - is usually the best to start with (followed closely by sadness or grief). As I said, if you want the good, you have to feel the bad first - sort of like an emotional purge. Feel free to contact me if the above suggestions aren't working for you; different tactics work for different people.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4000197825548242127.post-54793858055718328492013-07-07T13:19:37.000-07:002013-07-07T13:19:37.000-07:00Lindsay, I got your comment (because the comments ...Lindsay, I got your comment (because the comments are emailed to me). I do have some thoughts I would like to share with you. If you still want to talk about this you can reach me at lesliesillusions at gmail dot com.<br /><br />Also, I moved my blog to Wordpress, I'be been writing more about DID there. If you'd like to read it c'mon over to http://lesliegnelson.com<br /><br />I'd love to talk to you. :)Lesliehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15897067084988651970noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4000197825548242127.post-27746388531468494762013-07-07T10:56:17.647-07:002013-07-07T10:56:17.647-07:00This comment has been removed by the author.Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12989833998596651943noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4000197825548242127.post-11201777554749066662013-04-08T11:45:29.720-07:002013-04-08T11:45:29.720-07:00It always amazes me how just tiny things make good...It always amazes me how just tiny things make good! the other day we were driving to bellingham in our new big truck... i say this because it is big and we sit up high. i made it a goal to smile at every person i could for several miles, just to see. only one guy gave me that "you weirdo" look. everyone else smiled back. glad to catch up with you! CathyCathyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01273101486326139103noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4000197825548242127.post-48709864298714197192013-04-08T07:00:39.046-07:002013-04-08T07:00:39.046-07:00Knowing that I can contribute forces me to admit t...Knowing that I can contribute forces me to admit that I am not completely broken.<br /><br />I can only imagine how wonderful Heavenly Father, the doer of millions of kindnesses every "day", feels.<br /><br />A perfect article and wonderful gift to any who will read it, Leslie! RRMAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4000197825548242127.post-25769654994693721422013-04-04T09:56:56.592-07:002013-04-04T09:56:56.592-07:00Jenny, thanks, I am so pleased that you liked this...Jenny, thanks, I am so pleased that you liked this, because this is the kind of thing that my book is about. Stories or anecdotes from the scriptures, that help survivors to feel the Savior's love and concern. And if others who have not been abused find comfort and solace in it, that will be great too.Lesliehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15897067084988651970noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4000197825548242127.post-76458566717753578212013-04-04T09:53:44.260-07:002013-04-04T09:53:44.260-07:00Excellent find, thanks so much for sharing that wi...Excellent find, thanks so much for sharing that with me!Lesliehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15897067084988651970noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4000197825548242127.post-12523473675597891162013-04-04T09:52:44.594-07:002013-04-04T09:52:44.594-07:00Thank you that is very helpful. I was wondering a...Thank you that is very helpful. I was wondering about that very thing...about "despising the shame". I really like that idea of "refusing to accept". I will definitely ponder that some more.Lesliehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15897067084988651970noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4000197825548242127.post-33268969794132393182013-04-04T09:49:14.323-07:002013-04-04T09:49:14.323-07:00Thanks so much Mel!Thanks so much Mel!Lesliehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15897067084988651970noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4000197825548242127.post-30019624539409817152013-04-04T07:54:09.725-07:002013-04-04T07:54:09.725-07:00This is the most beautiful post you've ever wr...This is the most beautiful post you've ever written, precisely because it gets to the heart of The Truth. Thank you for your insight and for sharing it with us. I look forward to your book.Jennynoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4000197825548242127.post-82972175808084640792013-04-04T03:52:37.866-07:002013-04-04T03:52:37.866-07:00I think the following supports my understanding of...I think the following supports my understanding of "despising" as "refusing to accept":<br /><br />Hebrews 10:28 He that despised Moses’ law died without mercy under two or three witnesses:<br /><br />The LDS scriptures at least explain despised as rejected. We are to reject shame. So possibly awful things happen so that people will have the opportunity to learn to reject shame.<br /><br />A quick and outright rejection of the shame will not lessen the ugliness of the crime against our bodies and it will show the power of Christ in us as we say "The Lord judge between me and thee." RRMAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4000197825548242127.post-82807306475242971042013-04-04T02:20:48.613-07:002013-04-04T02:20:48.613-07:00Crucifixion was dehumanizing to all involved. The ...Crucifixion was dehumanizing to all involved. The victim of course because s/he being difficult to look upon is disconnected from family and friend. But family and friend also because it is not possible or safe to give aid and comfort.<br /><br />That you know and report that Jesus and all victims of crucifixion were completely naked is to your credit. Most people think the victim had a small covering but if the earliest paintings are viewed then it is clear that the covering is disconnected and included only for the benefit of artist and viewer. Over the years the covering became connected and a large part of the meaning of "despising the shame of it" has been lost.<br /><br />Hebrews 12:2<br />2 Looking unto Jesus the author and finisher of our faith; who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is set down at the right hand of the throne of God.<br /><br />I think "despising" above could mean "refusing to accept". Somehow I was able to latch onto the fact that their actions were to their shame not mine. I hand to you the gift of knowing that you can refuse to accept the shame of their actions. RRMAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4000197825548242127.post-64257626782952778272013-03-31T13:57:43.788-07:002013-03-31T13:57:43.788-07:00Beautiful words, Leslie.Beautiful words, Leslie.Melhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05555212452408342954noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4000197825548242127.post-32519995404215086732013-03-29T06:27:04.637-07:002013-03-29T06:27:04.637-07:00Your letter was great. I am happy to see the updat...Your letter was great. I am happy to see the update, that you received a response back from the editor. Tracie Nallhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07908908021649000930noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4000197825548242127.post-64154199272874543302013-03-29T03:33:33.650-07:002013-03-29T03:33:33.650-07:00Thanks Mel! You wouldn't believe how long I s...Thanks Mel! You wouldn't believe how long I spent fretting over this letter, trying to assure myself that it was "just right." Thanks for your encouragement!Lesliehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15897067084988651970noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4000197825548242127.post-4479956348278538312013-03-29T03:32:37.692-07:002013-03-29T03:32:37.692-07:00Thanks Josh! Much appreciated. :) Thanks Josh! Much appreciated. :) Lesliehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15897067084988651970noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4000197825548242127.post-48263538108865647692013-03-29T03:31:39.701-07:002013-03-29T03:31:39.701-07:00Thanks Leslie! I did get a very nice response fro...Thanks Leslie! I did get a very nice response from them (it was after you wrote this comment. :)) <br /><br />It was scary! Thanks for understanding. Lesliehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15897067084988651970noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4000197825548242127.post-92049682755905453912013-03-28T23:49:03.274-07:002013-03-28T23:49:03.274-07:00Great letter! You keep on educating, it is so impo...Great letter! You keep on educating, it is so important and you do it well!!!Melhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05555212452408342954noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4000197825548242127.post-65054515716285313702013-03-28T17:52:33.884-07:002013-03-28T17:52:33.884-07:00So cool that you got a response!
I think you woul...So cool that you got a response!<br /><br />I think you would be the perfect person to write an article about this subject.The Weedhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00402140616200621802noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4000197825548242127.post-32079287518246192412013-03-28T12:36:22.547-07:002013-03-28T12:36:22.547-07:00Very well written, Leslie. I hope that it causes a...Very well written, Leslie. I hope that it causes a reaction in the Editor(s) and that you hear back from them. <br /><br />Also, very brave. I'm proud of you :)Lesliehttp://www.lhrich.com/therapyandfunctionnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4000197825548242127.post-82928670483968306962013-03-13T15:33:55.721-07:002013-03-13T15:33:55.721-07:00When you get your book done, please read it on CD ...When you get your book done, please read it on CD for me (dyslexie anti reading friend) AND to tell the truth, I feel I escaped the Jaws of Hell when I finally (sorta) forgave my X-husband. I had so much bitterness inside of me, blaiming him for all I had to go through and wondering if God loved some more than others. Now my eyes are opened, and I know it was an act of kindness on the lords part. My life would have been ten times worse if we had stayed together. Now when I see him I feel sorry and Eve's words comes to mind "I know thee now". Love Charice Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4000197825548242127.post-83455889252689313332013-03-13T15:00:23.424-07:002013-03-13T15:00:23.424-07:00Hey BFF and sister. Like you said, we've been...Hey BFF and sister. Like you said, we've been friends forever and roomates too and I would have never known. I am so sorry that this is the cross that you've been given to bare. You must have been so strong in the pre-existance. You have been my teacher sence the 80's, and I continue to learn much. Thank You My Love<br />Charice Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4000197825548242127.post-79033870284010796532013-03-13T14:14:15.718-07:002013-03-13T14:14:15.718-07:00I like it. My wonderful Mother would pick up tras...I like it. My wonderful Mother would pick up trash no matter where we were, at the beach, on the sidewalk, in someone elses car, she whould have a plastic bag in hand and clean up the area as best she could. (never saying a word to us kids, and sometimes we would help)<br /><br />love ya and your Ideas<br />ChariceAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4000197825548242127.post-52412403413730915972013-03-13T12:00:53.359-07:002013-03-13T12:00:53.359-07:00Congratulations, Leslie. I so agree that feeling c...Congratulations, Leslie. I so agree that feeling cut off, that separation from God, is the deepest wound, and I'm really glad to learn that your new practice of meditation is proving beneficial in this way. Thank you so much for being willing to write about this. It will help many others who may just need a nudge of encouragement to begin a similar practice.Kylahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02921501156023116913noreply@blogger.com